I dont get it.

I'm so frustrated with myself right now. I dwell on things too much, way too much. I'm so unmotivated to do anything. I'm self absorbed. Why do I care more and more every day about what people think about me? No, not what people think, just what you think. Damn it. I'm not going to talk to you for a while. I, I don't know. I'm not going to make the same mistakes all over again.